This sorrow, that dwells deep within this heart. It's so hard to explain. This longing, this desire that accompanies it, even harder to put into words. And this passion, that gives it strength and drives me beyond the tears. How do I explain it with words?
You may never see it, you may never notice. Or maybe you will catch it in an unguarded glance. Or maybe you will be there on one of the days when the spillways overflow. But will you understand it?
I often fear being seen as weak. But I've decided that I would rather be SEEN and seen as weak than hide behind a lie. For you see, I've already been seen and loved beyond my weaknesses and beyond the mask that I wear to hide. Christ has known me from the moment that He formed my very soul and He has loved me beyond all flaws.
And HE is what drives my passion. He is my passion. And this desire that wells up and overwhelms, though my fleeting attempts will try other things, only He can satisfy. And this sorrow flows from love that I do not deserve and love that breaks my heart to see such needs.
So you see, I'm going to try to let you see me. I"m taking down the bricks of my walls one by one. But there are days when I need help. Most days in fact. BUT I don't want to live behind lies. See me as I am, even if that appears weak. And PLEASE, let me see you too. I already know that you wear a mask. I'm not really fooled. And I know that you are not as strong as you want to be. And I know how scary it is to step out from behind the mask. To see and to be seen. But let me assure you, there is already ONE who sees you and knows you and loves you beyond the flaws.
So come out and play with me. Let our joy and laughter echo beyond the borders of sorrow. Let us delight together in the satisfaction of life in Christ. Come let our passions from Christ change the world.
Come out and shine. Be seen, be known, and beloved.
