So here's an update on the rotation situation. I still have no clue what lab I will end up in or who will reject me. But today I talked with the head of the program about the possibility (probability in my mind) of doing a fifth rotation. I really like this guy, I always find him encouraging. So we talked about the possibilities and the do-ability of it. But one of the things that he repeated at least twice is that I shouldn't just give up on the labs, or step aside nicely for someone else, that he thought I had just as much right. He also said that he thought I was a good student. I don't plan on just giving up and stepping aside. I haven't mentioned to any other parties involved that I am organizing plan B. But I am guessing that there was something in explanation that told him that I didn't think I was getting into my choice labs. I mean, that was the reason I was there. But it was a bit more than "oh it's just in case" more like "this is what I predict will happen."
So a couple of days ago, plan B was freaking me out. Actually, last night plan B was freaking me out. But now I'm not sure if it would be so bad. If I got into either of my choice labs, that would be good. I like them. But I'm not absolutely in love with them. And maybe a fifth rotation would be good. But I'm not backing down from my currents choices. (It's just that part of me is hoping that the doors really will be slammed so that I will have a good reason for a fifth lab and plan B).
It makes me wonder if I am going numb and moving on because that's what I tend to do when I there is something that I want but can't have. Or, if the Holy Spirit is trying to let me in on the plan.
Ephesians 3:20-21
Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, acoording to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!
Amen
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