Saturday, April 11, 2009

To be or not to be in which lab

So my first year of grad school has involved classes and rotations.  There are four rotations of 6 weeks through four different labs.  It's basically a dating process, where you decide if you like the lab, the people, and the research and if they like you.  I really enjoyed my second lab completely, both the people and the research.  My third lab I liked the people and the research was fine, but it was away from the research topic that I am more interested in.  So I have wanted to go into the second lab.  So here is the catch.  Another of my classmates and friends also likes this lab and wants to go into it.  While there is nothing saying that both of us can't go into the lab, it's not a common thing, but because of money and other resources.  And we are both getting the impression from the Professor that we will be taken.  So it will likely come down to the Professor deciding which of us she wants or if she wants both of us.
So I am left wondering, it God is about to change the direction of my life again, or re-arrange it to something unexpected.  And if so, I'm okay with that.  I have concerns.  Of course, I always have concerns.  But I wanted direction and I have been relying on Him.  But this is me, sometimes I need a kick and slammed doors.   So I pray His will be done.  In my third rotation I can see there being more deep friendships and ministry possible.  So if I end up there I won't be heart broken, but a little confused.   Then again,  I am in grad school, confusion seems to be a part of everyday.

1 comment:

Christine said...

Don't worry! at least it's not up to you to pick--the prof will decide and God will use his decision to put you right where He wants you :) Given that, though, I really hope you get what you want!

PS I'm catching up on your previous posts and really enjoying them! <3